It's been more than a year or two or so since I last blogged. Deleted all the old entries away. Yes, I do have a habit of deleting away my blog posts. Mostly negative stuff anyway.
I felt the urge to write again. Writing brings me comfort, it feels like my blog truly understand my emotions. I feel honest typing, I dun have to feel weird. Feels like no one really understand what is going on with me except my blog. Weird it may sounds.
Many things have changed since the last year or two. I got into a relationship. Friends I once held so close and dear to me has faded away. Improved family relationship. Working issues. Health has taken its toll onto me once I stopped CrossFit, somehow.
Anaphalaxis, post nasal drip cough, gastric pain, gynaecological problems, migraines etc.... One thing I truly learn from all these health scares - it is my mum who stood by me all this while. I learn to love my mum more each and everyday. Even though there are times we have really bad quarrels, I still love her nonetheless because without her, there won't be me surviving till today. I also realised that really, unless someone who has gone through or is going through my whole sickness saga will know how detrimental it brings to your whole state of health and especially mentally and emotionally. It is easy for others to give advice or not deem your problems as siginifcant because they are not the ones going through all this shit.
Baby, give me some time. There are times I feel down ad not feel like talking but texting and writing is fine. I do not know how to express myself when I talk, sometimes.
Man, I hope this sadness goes away soon.
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